We all seem to be needing a reset or renewal button so I am going to add mine to the board. I lost about 35 pounds and I looked and felt great. Then my husband hurt my daughter, left us and then filed for divorce. That was made final about 5 weeks ago and he is getting married next week. (don't you dare tell me he wasn't seeing her when he lived with us). Anyway, this winter was just hard and I finally had the doctor prescribe an anti-depressant. While it helped me stop crying uncontrollably, which is a necessity when you are a school counselor, it also caused me to gain 30 lbs. After about 20 lbs I went in and told him "I would rather be sad and skinny than fat and numb". He changed the prescription. The next pill made me not be able to sleep and I already have insomnia and one of the rare side effects is "an uncontrollable craving for sweets and carbs".
Guess who always gets the rare side effects? Always. Guess who was found in the faculty room hoarding all the sweet cinnamon twists every Monday and Thursday? Sigh.
I finally told him that I just couldn't take the weight gain and that I REFUSED to purchase bigger clothes again. I just got some cute smaller ones. So we tapered off that pill. And the weight started coming off. A heck of a lot slower than it went on.
The good news is I am only 10-12 pounds from my lowest weight last year and I am starting to feel physically better. I actually slept for 5 hours last night. Of course most of that weight loss is because I am not eating. Anything. Well, maybe a handful of grapes or a bowl of beans, but truly I forget to eat because I am so sad I just sit and stare or wander the house waiting to hear keys in the door or his step on the floor.
No more! I started doing Yoga again and it feels so good and my body slipped back into the routine quickly and the strength and flexibility didn't take as long as when I first started years ago. I ate 2 actual meals yesterday and they were healthy and when the girls brought some donuts in the house a while ago I just looked at them and said Yummy and walked away because I didn't really want one.
Baby steps, baby steps.