Is that what I really look like?

Hey, everybody, I'm back! For a while there, I was so sick of dieting. I just didn't have the mental energy to do it anymore. I had sort of convinced myself that I was okay. I mean, I'm only about 40 pounds overweight. That's not such a big deal, right? Then I went to my 30-year high school reunion. Everyone insisted on taking pictures. Here's me with two of my good friends, Debbie and Melissa.



That's me on the right. Of course, I am standing next to Melissa, who hasn't changed much since high school, except she looks better. Debbie, on the left, has really been through a lot since we graduated, and she still looks good. I look like someone brought their mother to the reunion. The bags under my eyes are so big the airlines would charge extra luggage fees. And that weird expression on my face? I think someone made me laugh. But I couldn't just relax and smile, because deep down I knew I looked terrible (especially compared to these two) and I was feeling so uncomfortable. I hate having my picture taken.

So here I am again. I need to challenge myself and so I will be participating in the Mesa Falls Marathon on August 28. Don't get too excited. There's a marathon, a half marathon, a 5K, and a 1 miler. I'll be in the 1 miler, or possibly the 5K. My normal walking route is 1 mile. I just need to bump up my speed. And train. A lot.

Beyond that, my main goal is to lose weight, get healthy, have some really good pictures taken, and plaster them on Facebook so all my old classmates can see them.