Not to be vain, but there is something I am really good at. Something I am so good at that I get asked at least once a week to do it. For the past three weeks my daughters soccer schedule has occupied my time and kept me from doing the thing that I do really well. And it has been a good thing because unfortunately the the thing I am so good at is.....MAKING CHOCOLATE CHIP COOKIES!
I have the recipe down pat, friends and family are always asking me to make them, and when you make a batch of cookies you have to try them right? Especially when they are golden brown and perfect. That is the point I am at right now. The pleading eyes have begged and begged and I broke down and made the stinking cookies. I can smell them baking in the oven, their little chunks of chocolate calling out to me "eat us" "chocolate is of the earth" "just one won't hurt". It is tormenting.
I am typing this blog in the hopes that I can resist. In the hopes that I won't have to sign on tomorrow and tell you all that I just couldn't do it. I am on day three of Leptin. It is going well. I am not hungry. I had a great dinner. I won't be starving if I don't eat a cookie. I have been off sugar, except for once a week when I let myself have one small treat, for three weeks. Since January 1st I have lost seven pounds. And you might say, why can't I count a cookie tonight as my weekly treat? Because Sunday my mom is making me a birthday dinner and I know cake is going to be involved. I need to save myself for that cake. And if I break down on cookies tonight I will not be able to justify that cake. And so I suffer, but at least now I have a place to type out my sufferings! Thanks for the support. I hope tomorrow I can say--the cake is mine! Until then my tall glass of ice water and I will console ourselves and think skinny, healthy thoughts!!!