For lunch I had a lean cuisine frozen dinner and Activia fruit yogurt which came to a total of 410 calories.
By the time school got over I really, really wanted to eat lots when I got home. I started thinking about how hard of a day I'd had (and it was really bad yesterday--not because of my classes, but just because of how the day started which rolled over into the rest of the day). As soon as I started thinking about my hard day, my stomach started grumbling and I wanted to go home and snack, snack, snack. I stayed at the school kind of late, but thoughts such as, "I wonder if I have enough change to buy a candybar from the vending machines" or "I could go eat those cookies in my cupboard" . . . ran through my head. Somehow I resisted the call. By the time I got home I was hungry and tired enough that I had Damon pick up fast food on the way home, BUT I got a chicken nugget happy meal and that ranges in total calories of about 500 including the drink. And yes! I got fries! So my calories weren't high--of course my fat was, but hey. Let's take things one at a time, right?
Today has been better. I made sure to get up in time for my protein shake with a cup of skim milk and a bananas all blended together, which I think tastes fine. My husband and my niece both think it is one of the grossest things they've tasted, but it doesn't bother me at all. I don't love it, but it is quick, easy to bring with me, NOT gross to ME, and it hits the spot when more solid food just doesn't sound that good to me that early in the morning.
I had my typical lean cuisine lunch, which was fewer calories than yesterday along with my yogurt--330 calories and now I'm going to have a snack of a small apple with peanut butter. For dinner? Spaghetti, garlic bread, and string beans. That'll put me up to around 1500 calories and tonight is taekwondo, so it all works out.
I did not exercise on Monday. Even though I need to do more, I'm still okay with just adding in these changes as I go because school is really hard to adjust to!
My problem is this. What can I do in place of the snacking when I get home that still feels like a reward to me? I thought about reading a book, but reading to me is just about as necessary as breathing--okay--maybe not that extreme, but more necessary to me than a microwave! So me NOT reading stresses me out, versus reading for a reward. Other than that I'm clueless. I really want to avoid any kind of junk food for a while, because it helps me adjust and appreciate the little that I will start allowing myself in about a month.
Maybe when I start riding my bike--no that stupid road still hasn't opened up--maybe the exercise will make me feel good enough that I won't need it. Maybe . . .
But all in all? A good start. I've controlled the calories and I AM going to taekwondo tonight! Yay for days one and two!!